you were never around even when you were here.

when ur crush is attached. 

what to do?  But he is still nice to look at :3

I feel too afraid to step into the unknown. I don’t know what I want.

i have to admit that I am depressed.

I have so much pinned up emotions in me and yet I do not know how to let it out.

I am trying to make my time as constructive as I can to fill up the gap within me.

But you know, right now I am talking to a friend I havent spoken to for the longest time. I feel like someone out there have heard my voice and if tt is true, I thank you for tonight.

But then I won’t, and I’ll pretend as though it never crossed my mind. And you will ask me how I am at a party some day, and look at me as though you really want to know, and I will say “I am fine.”

they were indeed valid.

but deep in my heart, they were not. 

My broken heart is now crashed into even smaller pieces.

why so sudden? what do you want from me? Just when I am trying to recover from all of it, why do you have to be back. 

I should have deleted you from facebook at that time. I was too busy with work and I forgot all about it. I am not lying and I was god damn serious about it. But I cant do that now.

What can I ever do. 

Is that the reason why you drifted and never came back? (How foolish and self centered can I be?)

It has been a year since we first met and I dare to say the 6mths I have spent with you I was happy and I was glad.

I wonder if you enjoyed my company.. I wonder if you miss me. I wonder about alot of things and I wonder why I never did have the guts to call out to you again.

Now I realized I may have been too selfish, I may have been a tad stubborn. Okay, very stubborn.

I wish you all the best and I wish you had at least told me that you left.

Fuck it all, I wish you wld come back and tell me what it was all about.

I feel so worn out and tired.

I just want to lie in bed and do nth everyday.
But i cant :(

I cant find happiness…. i feel so sad.

Can someone just marry me and let me be a housewife already.